I was sitting next to another mom at Gianna's ballet class a few weeks ago, who had pulled out her daughter's kindergarten worksheet for personal review. I happened to glance over and I admit I grew concerned. The page revealed accomplishments my own kindergartener is not yet able to execute.
My concern was not laid to rest. Last week a friend and her babies came over for lunch and, as we are often wont to do, we began discussing school. Her son, born within a month of Gianna, is enrolled in a local Catholic school (a solid one). My friend had considered homeschooling, had even resolved to pursue it. But when three babies came one after the other after her son, she found her hands very full and thought his education would be best served outside the home. As we discussed the benefits and drawbacks of our choices, she revealed (unnknowingly) a number of areas in which her son excels that I have not even begun with Gianna.
Again, my concern persisted. This past weekend after mass I found myself talking with another dear friend, whose daughter, Gianna's companion, is enrolled in a private school. Little Caitlyn is a sweet, lovely girl....and she's also fluent in French. She became so in less than a year of kindergarten outside the home.
I know I shouldn't compare. I know Gianna is receiving many benefits other children are missing. It isn't that I want her to excel above others - I haven't a competitive bone in my body. But....but, if she is falling behind because of my own failure to teach well, that is something I need to consider. I'm a very free-spirited, stop-and-smell-the-roses type of person as I've mentioned before. Discipline and schedule are not my strengths, though I strive for them daily. It concerns me that my own weaknesses could fail such a vital aspect of my child's life: her education.
We love homeschooling. Most days are as beautiful and as awe-inspiring as Father Serra's flowers in the previous post. We will continue learning together next year, and hopefully the year after. I'm only realizing I have new elements of my daughter's education to ponder and to bring to my Father in prayer.