and the Lord hath taken away: as it hath pleased the Lord so it is done: blessed be the name of the Lord.
Our adoption fell through. We'd suspected something was wrong for several days prior to the official call from our agency - we just didn't know what was wrong. Really we still don't know the whole story. What we do know is that God knows best. We are as grateful for this outcome as we were to learn the good news in the first place. It is all Good news.
I'm relieved to have confirmation. I'd been pacing every last inch of my house almost nonstop from last Wednesday into the beginning of this week, wondering. Now I don't have to wonder. I'm also grateful it happened this early on in the process. Had I another few weeks of anticipation, I would have been very attached to this baby. It's quite amazing how a simple image can change your heart so quickly. Oh, those beautiful sonograms.
On the positive side, we're resuming all our seasonal plans....a Nutcracker performance, local Christmas festivals, parties, parades, and a long-ago planned family vacation in January. (Thank you Lord, for not allowing us to cancel our plane tickets - we came so close!) Most importantly we're eagerly awaiting the beautiful birth of our Savior, the Healer of us all.
I would be remiss if I didn't mention how incredibly wonderful my husband is. The extra embraces, those strong arms around me, those beautiful flowers. I almost feel guilty....really, I'm not sad. There's no cause for sadness in my house. The mere presence of my two girls and the possibility of self-pity are a contradiction in every way.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for your outpouring of joy! I. LOVE. you.